Flawless.

I do not know why August Rush was such a good movie.

I sat in my chair for 5 minutes after the movie ended, just in amazement.

Maybe, it's just that desire for love. I desire to love somebody and have somebody love me in return (even though God should be all that I need..) August Rush was just a great movie. I think I am developing a heart for kids who are adopted. The Mother wasn't aware of her child still being alive because the Dad was a douche bag. He had forbid her to see the guy that had got her pregnant. But she had a feeling that August (also known as Evan.) was still alive. I felt an immense part of joy when she found him. I don't wish for my birth parents to find me, but of course, I never know if I'll get a phone call ever.

I don't miss her at all. I think I successfully dislodged her from my heart. My biggest issue was realizing how many friends I had screwed over and the awesome thing to see is how many of them were waiting for me to come right back to them. I think that if Matt and Rebecca do not like the girl that I am dating, then that's an obvious sign.

I got called self-righteous. And I have been dwelling on it ever since. What is it be self-righteous? Not sure if I was intentionally trying to be self righteous, I think that it just had turned out that way.

Gawd, I want what they have. I want that compassion and respect. I want that desire. I want the passion to love her each and every day. I want to be her everything. I want her to accept me for who I am. I refuse to put up fronts from now on. I realized that I had put up one of the biggest fronts I ever have before and ultimately, I lied to myself. I want her to freaking accept me for who I am. Sarcastic, timid, understanding, NOT NAIVE, been through at least something, gar.