a cornucopia of feelings

I am not exactly sure what I am feeling right now.

Helpless -- because I don't know / I don't want to do what I know what I have to do.
Jealous -- I feel like ________ trusts / can confide in _________ better than me. I guess that I sort of set myself up for that one.
Excited -- that I get to figure out what I am doing over the summer.
Anxious -- to figure out my plans for going home and where I am going during the summer.
Nervous -- because I am still trying to discern / decide if moving out here is something that I should pursue.
Tired -- well, that sort of explains itself.
Desiring -- a new self. a new perspective. a new life.
Perplexed -- why relationships / friendships can be so lame sometimes.