So, this past weekend was a weird weekend, but I am glad that all of it went down. I feel a more deeper sense of connection with #3. Even though my last post seemed very negative nancyish, everything got made up in the end.
A friend provided some legit insight on the whole matter and I am glad that email was sent. I am glad that I have been confirmed by a bunch of people to not pursue anything at least right now. It would be selfish and not right at all. If God has her for me later in life, then sweet deal, if not, I will be able to deal with that. This is something that I will probably need accountability on and will have to figure out something to cope with. I do love her, but I am pretty sure that I love her enough to let her go and be with somebody that she truly likes. Time to stop being selfish. Time to stop thinking about myself.
Thank you to my Mom for her awesome understanding of what I am doing. I can't be more than excited for the verification from God that this is what I should be doing. Sweet. I was expecting her to give me an ultimatium, but praise God that she didn't. Yes, my credit and my Mom's credit will be taking a HUGE hit. But for me Mom to understand that I love what I am doing and willing to take that hit with me, is pretty freakin' huge. I enjoy it. I love her. I love it.
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