Obviously something is going on.

Well, in my 30-45 minute commute time to and from work, I do a lot of thinking about life, my future, and the present. What really drives me nuts is how God just lets us sit here, think and ponder, and lets us just try and comprehend our futures. We don’t know what is going to happen in the next 5 minutes, the next day, or even the next week. Now, we’re supposed to not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. (Matthew 6:34). I guess that I worry too much for my own good.
I wish that God would just give us a snippet of our life in 20 years. I would love a movie of my life in 20 years. I just want to know who I marry, how many kids that I have, what church that I go to, what ministry I am in, what’s my career, just random stuff like that. But we can’t and that’s one of the many reasons why I have to total reliance on Christ so that He can lead me in the right direction and on to the right path.
Just from current circumstances, I don’t think that God has called me to be single all of my life. A friend of mine had pointed that out, haha, why would God do that to me if in addition to Him, I desire companionship. Sometimes I hate being human. Wait, I’m not sure what else I would want to be. But whatever.
Another thought that I’ve had, not sure if anyone would think it’s funny unless they know T-SQL Programming, but I think that the variables that you declare in your life affect the output. If you do not declare the variables correctly at the beginning, then the output gets all messed up and the file errors out. Now, I know that is very nerdy and doesn’t make sense to those who don’t program, but believe me, if you don’t program, you’re probably doing yourself a favor. It’s kind of hard to call myself a computer programmer. Oh well.